The Daily Toilings Of A Part Time Stay At Home Mom

We escaped reality on Sunday.  We went to the beach.  It had been a long and emotional week.  Although it was nice to get away from the home front, it was unmistakable that the families shape had changed again.  I felt it for the first time when my Nana passed, that knowledge that no holiday,  no family gathering, no day, would ever be the same.  In the beginning it is easy to block out that undeniable fact and the overwhelming pain that comes with it.  I think that is why we picked the beach.  And one of the most rowdy ones at that...Salisbury municipal beach.  Blaring live music, arcades, ice cream trucks and 900 million people going on with life like something MAJOR didn't just happen.  In that environment you let your brain turn off for a little bit and maybe for just a few moments take in the beauty of the ocean  enjoy your family, and then remember with a ache that Da...

You know what I am thinking about today?  The way it feels when you wake up in the morning knowing that you are headed to the beach.  Making sure to shave all appropriate parts for bathing suit wearing (I must admit that leg shaving takes a way back seat...like the third seat in mom's old station wagon that faced the wrong way) in the winter time.  Not putting on makeup (or if your like me maybe just some concealer...and ok a little lipstick...I am kinda girly like that.)  Slathering on sunscreen instead of lotion, packing a bag full of towels, swim diapers, and like eighty thousand other beach neccessities, make it 160 thousand if you are traveling with your children.  Packing up the cooler full of sandwiches, juices, water, wine and beer.  Stopping at Dunkies to get the ice coffee for the ride and maybe a bag of ice for the cooler.  Yup that is what I am thinking about today...beaches.  Yes there is still a sad and dirty l...