I have been horrible this week. Just plain irritable, emotional, short tempered, horrendous! You name it I have been it. Sadly, I think I am still in the throws of it now. Both of the kids have been sick which is just the pits. Runny nose, coughing, puking, 400 loose stool diapers a day makes for a type of exhaustion that could only be matched by running the Boston Marathon. To top it off my daughter is not one of those cuddly quiet sick kids, she fights the illness with everything in her and WHINES incessantly, following me around the house crying and hanging off my leg. I will set her all up with blankie, bubba, binky all cozy on the couch and then go in the kitchen to attempt starting dinner and within two minutes she is standing under my legs crying and reaching for uppie. So onto the hip she goes and we end up with a sore arm and a half hazardly thrown together meal.
The point of this rant is that I am starting to admit that things can and do fall apart from time to time and it throws me for a loop. The laundry pile grows, toys don't get picked up, I haven't made any beds in a week, and I could tell you what we had for dinner the past couple nights by looking under the kitchen table (kids are pigs). It will get done when the kids are back to themselves and don't need every tiny bit of extra energy that I have. This is not easy for me to except though. I am one of those women that live by routine. Without it I get uneasy...I mean I actually unpacked my entire house with two kids under foot in less then two days. That is bat shit crazy but I needed to get back to the routine asap and that is not easy when your crap is piled to the ceiling in boxes. I guess I should look into getting some help for this problem because all this routine doesn't make me the nicest person when there is a monkey wrench thrown into the mix like a sick kid, moving across 5 states, or family engagements that fall during nap time.
Recently I was on a SAHM forum and they were all talking about these cleaning schedules that they downloaded off a obviously psychotic website and I thought to myself, dear god do not let me find myself printing that crazy fucking thing. "I CAN'T GO TO THE PARK RIGHT NOW!!!!! TODAY I HAVE TO CLEAN THE OVEN AND MOVE ALL THE LARGE FURNITURE TO VACUUM UNDERNEATH!" Yes that was actually on the list. I can't tell you what is under my couch but I am sure that it is hairy and gross and will get cleaned when we buy another couch.
My daughter is now hanging off my leg with huge green buggers so that is all for today. Whoever leaves the best comment about their own imperfection(s) will get this imperfect necklace. Nothing special just a token of my appreciation for sharing your little quirks. Misery loves company ya know! Handmade by me at the peak of exhaustion so it is guaranteed to be perfectly imperfect!